Sunday, January 4, 2009

Day 4 of 365: I'm So Tired

I worked today, which it was quite possibly the most boring day I've experienced in the two years that I've been there. Although, the morning was a bit rough because a resident passed away.

We had a married couple that lived on the unit I work. The husband was very ill. The wife was still very active and with it. It was her personal duty to help take care of him. She said she knew something wasn't right last night, and sat up all night watching her husband. He slept....she watched. When they went to get him out of bed this morning, he wasn't breathing. She felt his chest. No movement. She knew he was gone.

I went in and was delivering a piece of mail to her shortly after getting to work, and she was on her bed not looking too good. She told me the news, and I immediately had to sit down. We sat, talked, and cried together. I had made myself numb to death at work for quite some time, but this situation just hit me way too hard.

With the wedding fast approaching, my life flashed to the future. I kept thinking Oh my God, one day I'm going to be in Mrs. W's shoes with Ian. The thought of ever losing Ian, and the hurt for Mrs. W made the tears just pour out.

Now, I'm completely worn out, hence the photo for the evening. It's where I'm hanging out all night, with my laptop, just putzing on the net and watching Ruby on the Style network. I'll probably fall asleep in like, 10 minutes.


  1. Ok. I haven't even read the post yet, but I have to say, this is one of my top 5 fave Beatles songs!! I don't think you knew that I am a crazy fanatic for them?? Happiness is a Warm Gun is another good John screamer. :)

  2. Oh, now I've read it! Sorry for the tough day. I could never do what you do. I'm sure Mrs. W was happy to have you there with her today.

  3. You're a crazy Beatles fan? I didn't know you were CRAZY about them, but when I saw your yahoo SN, I kinda had an Yay to Beatles fans!!!!