Day 7 of 365: Hungry Like the Wolf

I got home from work and I was famished. Plus I thought Oh goodie! Our actual internet connection is due to be up and running today. And Ian might be online!

Well....net isn't working, and Ian "couldn't stay up long enough to wait" for me and he was "zonked."

Tonight I turn to mac & cheese. My comfort food is cheese. I've been eating it a lot lately, even though I'm not supposed to because of my high cholesterol. But when you're in an LDR and getting frustrated, sometimes comfort food is all you've got.

As I sit and nibble on my bowl of love and warmth, I remember the first 6 months Ian and I were together. I suppose we were in the "honeymoon" phase. We would talk every night, spend hours upon hours on the weekends talking about anything and everything. After he left from America, work picked up for him for the summer, so we would take two nights off a week. Now, goodness....between him being ill, and not being able to stay awake all the time, and my internet not working properly, I'm lucky if I get to talk to him twice a week. *sighs*

But honestly, I miss the old days when we'd talk every night. Yeah, it got hard sometimes because I felt I was missing my life, but now that I know my life is going to be spent with him, all I want to do is speak with him. I know, I know, I may be crazy and I need to live life more (which I'm going to try and do as much as I can over the next few months)....but he doesn't really make the effort anywhere like he used to. Yeah he sent me roses on Christmas Eve, but they're just flowers to me. I cried because I would've much rather had him then flowers once again. He used to leave me cute little comments on MySpace....he doesn't do that anymore. And we've had conversations where he thinks that I think he doesn't care anymore, which isn't true. But our relationship isn't the same.

The honeymoon period is over. *sighs*

And he always tells me I need to focus on what we DO have, rather than what we DON'T have, but I can't help it. I'm a woman! I do that sort of thing!

Maybe I'm just being selfish?

I think I'll finish my bowl and then maybe crawl into bed early and watch Sex and the City. Oooorrrrr I'll call my ISP and deal with all the outsourced workers on the phone.

Day 6 of 365: I'm Only Sleeping

This, folks, is the other love of my life. My beautiful, fat cat named Ashes. He was laying on the couch today sleeping, and he just looked so adorable.

With moving in a few months, the idea of leaving my fatty behind is killing me. If we can afford it, Ian and I are going to move Ashes as well. But he, unfortunately, is the last of our worries at the moment.

I got Ashes about 7.5 years ago while living in Akron and going to college. He was a stray that was wandering around the area, and one day I was walking home from class and he was in the front yard. We weren't allowed to have animals in the house, so I thought "no way" but the moment I saw him, I fell in love.

One night my roomies and I were all sitting in our living room, when we heard Ashes meowing at our front door. It was November, and quite cold out that night. So I fed him a can of tuna, left the door open, he came in the house and hasn't left my side since. He's moved several times with me, my best friend dressed him up in stickers and glitter one year for my birthday, he almost died from being ill, and he's always been there to comfort me. I would LOOOOVVEEEE to have him in England, but I just don't know yet.

We'll just have to wait and see, I suppose.

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Zach Braff with a beard is HOT! Thank goodness Scrubs is back tonight...I've missed the show AND I need something to occupy my evenings again.